20.000 seconds almost happy believe dad elegia everything for free god in my bed in your room iron flower laughing as i pray now is mine only dreaming paradise in me song for catherine virgin state of mind


20.000 seconds


20,000 seconds since you left and I'm still counting
And 20,000 reasons to get up, get some thing done
But I'm still waiting

Is someone kind enough to
Pick me up and give me food, assure me that the world is good
But you should be here, you should be here

How colors can change and even the texture of the rain
And what's that ugly little stain on the bathroom floor

I'd rather not deal with that right now
I'd rather be floating in space somewhere or
Worry about the ozone layer

And it's almost like a corny movie scene
But I'm out of frame and the lighting's bad
And the music has no theme
And we're all so strong when nothing's wrong
And the world is at our feet
But how small we are when our love is far away

And all you need is you


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almost happy


If I could look beyond your face
And photograph your hidden place
Would I find you smiling in the picture

I don’t know what you want
Because you don’t know
So what’s the point of asking

You’re almost happy
Almost content
But your head hurts

Far too many ways to go
We learn so much but never know
Where to look
Or when we should stop looking

I can love the whole of you.
The poetry I stole from you
And hide inside my stomach

You’re almost happy
Almost content
But your head hurts

It’s easy to get lost in you
And fall asleep inside of you
I want to return to you
A reason to be here
A reason to be here

No, I don’t know what you want
As you don’t know
So what’s the point of asking

You’re almost happy
Almost content
But your head hurts
You’re almost happy
You’re almost content
But your head hurts


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believe


Bravely I look further than I see
Knowing things I know I cannot be, not now
I'm so aware of where I am, but I don't know where that is
And there's something right in front of me and I

Touch the fingers of my hand
And I wonder if it's me
Holding on and on to Theories of prosperity
Someone who can promise me
I believe in me

Tomorrow I was nothing, yesterday I'll be
Time has fooled me into thinking it's a part of me
Nothing in this room but empty space
No me, no world, no mind, no face

Touch the fingers of my hand and tell me if it's me
Holding on and on to Love, what else is real
A religion that appeals to me, oh
I believe in me

Can you turn me off for just a second, please
Turn me into something faceless, weightless, mindless, homeless
Vacuum state of peace

On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
I believe in me
On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
I believe in me

Wait for me, I'm nothing on my own
I'm willing to go on, but not alone, not now
I'm so aware of everything, but nothing seems for real and
As long as you're in front of me then I'll

I watch the fingers of our hands
And I'm grateful that it's me
Holding on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
I believe in me

I'm willing to go on but not alone, not now
I'm so aware of everything


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dad


I was a kid, you were my dad
I didn't always understand
I wanted freedom, you got mad
You were concerned, I got upset
I didn't recognize you yet

And did you cry, I know I did
When I lied to you
I didn't want to hurt you
I just never knew I did

You never told me that you loved me
I know you didn't know how
I guess that shows we're much the same
'Cause I love you too and until now
I've never said those words out loud
I hope you're proud
To be my dad...

What are your secrets, do you pray
Is there a god that shows your way
I wish I knew...
Do you have crazy fantasies
What happens in your dreams
I want to know...

I guess you'll always be a mystery to me
But you taught me how to value life
And what else do I need
I have a dad who watches over me


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elegia


Oh, God, I haven't read your book
I'm sure it was divine
Especially the part where you turned water into wine

Oh, God, I want you to clear my mind
It's covered up with dirt
And I want to taste your skin
One time before I taste the earth

Oh, God, I apologize
I didn't knock when I arrived
Oh, God, I apologize
I didn't say goodbye last night
Oh, God

Now I guess you have your way
As I taste the earth today

Now I guess you have your way
As I taste the earth today

Now I guess you have your way
As I taste the earth today

Now I guess you have your way
As I taste the earth today


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everything for free


I don't know who you are
But you seem very nice
So will you talk to me
Shall I tell you a story
Shall I tell you a dream
They think I'm crazy
But they don't know that I like it here
It's nice in here, I get everything for free

Have you been here before
Shall I show you around
It's very pretty
Have you come here to stay
Well, you sure picked a day
My name is Billy
It's my birthday, you're invited to my party down the hall

Where I go, what I'll become or who I am or what I'll be
I'll never know, but I am sure that I'll get everything for free

I'm not troubled or sad
I'm just ready for bed
It's been a long day
Before they switch off the lights
It truly was a delight
They think I'm crazy
But they don't know that I like it here
It's nice in here

Where I go, what I'll become or who I am or what I'll be
I'll never know, but I am sure that I'll get everything for free

Where I go, what I'll become or who I am or what I'll be
I'll never know, but I am sure that I'll get everything for free
Everything for free

I don't know who you are
But you seem very nice
So will you talk to me
Have you been here before
Well, you sure picked a day
They think I'm crazy


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god in my bed


Before last night my heart was grey
Like my country is today
Big kaleidoscope I see
A thousand people gaze at me

To break the ice I start to sing
About a cell called everything
A cell so big a word like small
Is suitable to say it all

Is the fighting over, I lost track
Like a wave it all comes back
Same kaleidoscope I see
Someone standing next to me

It's hard to do, it's hard to try
Hard to stop wondering why
Do I keep filing every case
When the answer's on your face

You can't see her but you do
Music is transparent too
So join me, sing with all your might
Hallelujah, praise tonight

Far away and long ago
Wintertime meant feeling low
Now every single star looks bright
God was in my bed last night


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in your room


As she falls down and hurts her head
She's lying still but she's not dead
Awakens slowly, sees a picture of herself
On the wall as she gets up
Straightens her dress and calls me up
She says: 'I know now, I am whole now. Can you come?'

In your room where both of you are talking
Your good side and your bad
Discussing who has better hair
In your space, I hear four feet walking
And there are two more knocking
In case you're wondering
I'm still on your side

As she embraces all of me
I want her only to need me
It doesn't matter what I tell her because she changes
Her mind before she speaks
And tends to talk before she thinks
But how I love her

I know there's truth for you somewhere
If I were wise I'd take you there
But I'm not, at least not yet
So I'll be watching you instead
In your room, in your room

In your room, I can wander around forever
And I recognize the color of the walls that we painted
In your chair that I broke because I was careless
I can sit and watch you dance around
My words are spoken, I am on your side
My words are spoken, I am on your side
In your room, in your room


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iron flower


Thunder, please explain
Why you ask me how I am, I'm fine I
Wonder is it sane
To pierce purple eyeballs made of china

I love you like a son, like a game I have won
Like a toothbrush I used for the Eiffel Tower
My youth, it is gone, it's a boot stuck in the ground
Is there truth to be found in an iron flower

Mmm, I will try hard to be a spark of power
I will, I'll never be your iron flower

Stone please explain
Why your silence makes more noise than thunder
Bones; is it sane
To obey me and the flesh you're under

Your words are soon gone and it hurts, I have none
Take a jump from you pretty linguistic tower
The goal of speech, so obnoxious to reach
Only one thing to do, melt your iron flower...

Mmm, I will try hard to be a spark of power
I will, I'll never be your iron flower
Mmm...


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laughing as i pray


As I'm walking through these streets again,
I'm crawling.
And as I try to live my life again,
I'm falling down.

Can you pick me up,
can you let it stop
can you make it go away.

won't somebody help me, is it hard
to let me find my way.
won't somebody love me, for a start,
i'm laughing as I pray.

Where is the road.
I must look at the road;
I must pray a little longer,
or laugh a little more.


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now is mine


My past, my future, my disease
Perhaps collapse to make me seize
A moment
Just a breeze

Grateful, humble I allow
These words to be the past somehow
I wonder
Am I here now

Am I here now
I feel hear see and it confuses me
I'm wrong
I am here now
Is mine I'll take it
All around the world

Take my future past, it's fine
But now is mine

My precious present will you bloom
To make this fourth dimension womb
Stop asking
Stop asking why

All I know is all I am
Will never fully understand my breathing
I try
How I try to feel hear see and it confuses me
I'm wrong
I am here now
Is mine I'll take it
All around the world

Take my future past, it's fine
But now is mine


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only dreaming


I'm sure you're only dreaming
You're only juggling with my mind
While I feel more and more like screaming
For the scar you left behind

I'm sure you're only dreaming
I'm sure we're just a part
Of what the lucky man believes in
I'm sure you know this song by heart

You're only dreaming, I think I can hear you talk
You're only dreaming, I think I can hear you say, 'shut up'
You're only dreaming, I hope your dream is in me
You're only dreaming you're free

You will show up while I'm dreaming
Out of nowhere cross my way
You will ask me not to scream and
You will smile and you will say, 'dear friend,

You're only dreaming, I think I can hear you talk
You're only dreaming, I think I can hear you say, 'shut up'
You're only dreaming, I hope your dream is in me
You're only dreaming you're free
You're only dreaming
You're only dreaming
You're only dreaming, dreaming...
You're only dreaming
You're only dreaming
You're only dreaming, dreaming...'


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paradise in me


Consuming far too much
Ignoring the will to touch
The ones who don't have food at all...

I'm breathing
I'm wondering how
We watch Wheel of Fortune now
I close my eyes and try to see
A piece of paradise in me

Beat me up
And smash my brand new TV
To help me look for
A little piece of paradise in me

I'm dancing, I'm writing songs
About what bothers me the most
About those who can't dance at all...

I'm only jumping
I'm only freaking out
And I wonder what it's all about
To close my eyes and finally see
A piece of paradise in me

Beat me up
And smash my brand new TV
To help me look for
A little piece of paradise in me
A little piece of paradise in me


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song for catherine


In your dreams, in your bed
In everyone and in your head
On the wall, it ain't white
In every letter that you write

In the way people talk
In the shape of stones and rocks
He's your hero, he's your god
He listens to this song and nods

In a voice, in a sound
When you're happy, when you're down
It will pass, things will change
But you don't want to hear that

In the scent of the air
On the clothes that people wear
You feel love, so does he
And he's telling you 'I'm here'
I'm here
He's here
He's here...


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virgin state of mind


There's a chair in my head on which I used to sit
Took a pencil and I wrote the following on it

Now there's a key where my wonderful mouth used to be
Dig it up, throw it at me
Dig it up, throw it at me

Where can I run to, where can I hide
Who will I turn to now I'm in a virgin state of mind

Got a knife to disengage the voids that I can't bear
To cut out words I've got written on my chair

Like do you think I'm sexy
Do you think I really care

Can I burn the mazes I grow
Can I, I don't think so

Can I burn the mazes I grow
Can I, I don't think so

Where can I run to, where can I hide
Who will I turn to now I'm in a virgin state of mind
Virgin state of mind
Virgin state of mind
Virgin state of mind


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