I'm gonna get LITTLES today!!!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

I was sitting in front of Wheeler Auditorium today waiting for Bea and for class to start, and I saw that guy again... the one I saw a year ago when I was also sitting in front of Wheeler waiting for someone. This guy is maybe 50 some odd years old, and he's dressed fairly nondescriptly. He's like your run-of-the-mill 50 year old guy, you know? Except that he looks SO sad. After an entire year... it didn't seem like anything had gotten any better for him. It's kinda gets you to wondering... what happened to him to make him so miserable? Did his wife leave him? Did his children abandon him? Does he just look like that on a regular basis? I dunno... I suppose it's not really my place to wonder... but it kinda jolts you back to reality to think about it I suppose. Well.. at least it jolts me. Jolted me last year... and jolted me again today... too bad I didn't learn anything from it last time... =T

Too often, I'm too concerned about myself... about the random stuff I'm going through... but if you think about it in perspective of what the rest of the world has, it's not that important for the most part. My problems are not really problems... they're merely inconveniences that I should overcome. I mean like my friend told me... we are amongst the most privileged of Americans. We attend one of the most prestigious universities in the nation, and I don't really worry about where my next meal is going to come from, or that I won't be able to pay my rent. I mean, for me... my parents will pay it all for me... my only responsibility is to go to school. My basic needs are taken care of... I'm luckier than half of the nation's population... and in terms of the world... I'm in the privileged top 0.5%.

And yet... still.. two weeks ago, I felt that my list of problems would never end.

but in reality, they don't really exist. The problems weren't really problems... none of them DIRECTLY affected me. They only affected me because I allowed them to. Interesting thought... I've decided to try a new thing... maybe if I tried not to let what bothers me, bother me... it'll go away...

hm... why does it sound as if there is something inherently wrong with that? Ah well.. I'll figure it out later... if it doesn't work... ::shrug:: I'm no worse off, eh?

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MY LITTLES ARE SOOOOOOOO COOL!!!!
wow! I'm SO lucky... other people put my littles in my family.. and they turn out to be SOOOOO awesome!!!

WOWEEE!!!

I go to sleep happy tonight... knowing that it's gonna be an AWESOME semester and that I have yet another set of people to love and put everything I have into. Like I told elvin long time ago... I love having littles to spoil because I have so much love to give, and since I have no boyfriend to spoil.. that makes my littles THAT much more special! I love you guys!

Eddie, Mikey, Linna, Howie, Wennie, Wendy, Whaha, Melon, Mikey, Tammi, and Jennie.... you guys be tite! =D

So.. what did I do today? Woke up, and went to a service project for the Californians... I was supposed to help run a booth at Cubfest... you know that thing for the kids of alumni that came for the Homecoming game? So like.. We had Sib Social yesterday and I kinda didn't get to sleep until late... and I woke up late and I was all... OH MAN! I felt bad... especially since it's my first project with the Californians. Turns out there was no point in my feeling bad, since I was the only one from the Junior branch to show up. But whatevers... at least A phi O was there, and I was able to steal Ryan Constantino over to help me at my booth.

And after the project, a few A Phi O people and the co-ordinators of Cubfest were the only people left. It's like... times like that when I see again how special the people in A phi O really are. You know? Like I mean.. it's cheesy, but like... remember Roger Chang? the SC service VP? In A Phi O... we don't just do service... we do EXCELLENT service. And it makes me feel really good to know that I am a part of an organization that carries through on what we say we will do, and that we have a reputation for going above and beyond to make sure we do a good job. Cuz we do... have a reputation that is... a lot of people have told me how much they appreciate the good work of our fraternity. Although they don't understand why girls are a part of the fraternity.. they still appreciate it. hehe =)

anyhow, I went home then took a nap, woke up fully intending to study... but I didn't... hehe.. I read.. one chapter? or something... worked on this... went back to sleep...

eh.. this midterm junk... sucks nuts.