Title:LITTLE SECRET
By: Kellie - burke_kellie@hotmail.comDisclaimer - Not suitable for children under 17 for profanity
Main Character: Jacob
Total Chapters: 7
CHAPTER 1 When I finally woke up from my coma, my mom was right there for me. Two weeks earlier, I tried to kill myself for many reasons, friends, family, love, decisions, just plain life. My boyfriend, Tom, slept with my sister, Cherish; I have to decide on a college and a career before graduation, which is next month, and every other rotten aspect of anything in a teenage girls life. “Taylor, do you know what is going on?” A nurse asked me. I thought of what has happened. I just slowly and softly nodded. “Ok, well you mom is right here and I will be back later to see how you are doing.” She walked out of the room.
“Dad is going to kill me, isn’t he…I don’t have to, he will.” I said staring boldly at my mom. She shook her head and started to cry. “Don’t say that. Ever since that night, Cherish has disappeared with Tom. We haven’t heard anything from anybody. Your father went to New York to see if they went there. She always talked about moving there and Tom would do anything to stay wrapped around her finger. Someone stopped by earlier, said something like he was the student body president and he wanted to see how things are going. Can’t remember his name.” My mom told me.
“Jacob. Jacob Underwood.” His name gave me goosebumps. He liked me since 3rd grade but I wouldn’t go near him. He was on the waterpolo team and I am a cheerleader. Cheerleaders go out with football players and waterpolo people go out with other waterpolo people. “Did he leave his number?” I asked out of curiosity sake. My mom nodded and pointed to the table beside my bed. There were flowers from him and a note: Taylor---when learning you tried to kill yourself I was sad. I still care for you so As soon as you get out of the hospital, please call me, we need to talk. Love---Jacob Underwood The note brought a tear to my eye and I called him right away. “Is Jacob there?” I asked softly.
“This is. Taylor?” The voice responded with care. “Umm…yeah. My mom said you stopped by the room. What did you need?” “I just wanted to tell you how much I care for you and never want you to hurt yourself again. I wish I could help you but I’m moving to Orlando after graduation. I’m going to be in a new Boyband. Will you come to Orlando to visit sometime?” Jacob said excitedly.
“I would love to but I’m afraid I can’t. I will have to be in a rehab thing. Probably take me a year to bust out. I also have to take anger management. I wish the best of luck to you though.” I said rolling my eyes. How annoying is he!
“Okay, well, I will see you around.” He responded with sadness. I heard the phone hang up so I sat there holding the phone thinking about how he probably felt. The next week I was released from the hospital and I never thought of him again. He wasn’t at graduation because he had already moved to Orlando. Weeks later a new TV show came on called Making The Band so I watched it since I had always been interested in music. The first week was boring so I watched it the next week. They picked 25 guys and announced them; Jacob was one of them. He doesn’t like Boybands I thought to myself. I turned off the TV and called his mom right away. She talked to me and then explained the show to me. I asked if she would tell me who the eight guys but she couldn’t tell me. I got his phone number and decided I would call him if he made the five. Between the time of the eight and the five was a long, emotional period. My boyfriend and my sister came back and my sister told us she was pregnant and once again I tried to kill myself. While in the hospital I watched Making The Band. I was in the hospital for 2 months when the final five were chosen. Jacob was picked and when the fat guy, Lou, called his name I started to cry. I dug in my purse for Jacob’s number and called him right away.
“Hello?” An accented voice answered.
“Is Jacob there?” I asked.
“Just a sec,” the voice hollered at him and I heard another yell back. “Who is this?” They asked. “A friend from high school, Taylor.” I said softly. “Jacob--its some Taylor chick.” The voice said loudly. I heard someone scream and then Jacob picked up the phone.
“Taylor?!” Jacob asked with enthusiasm.
“Jacob…”
CHAPTER 2
“How have you been?” He asked lovingly. “I had another suicide attempt.” “What happened now?”
“My sister is pregnant because she is a god damn slut!” I cried. “You okay? Do you want me to come back home?” He asked charmingly.
“No. I saw Making The Band and I just wanted to congratulate you for making it. I hope you don’t quit because of Ikiaka. You are by far the best in the group.” I said.
“Thanks, but you will have to see what happens next week and the upcoming weeks. I am not supposed to give anything away except to my parents.” He responded shyly.
“Well, I better go. I just thought I would call and say how proud I am. By the way, who is that Thania chick?” I asked jealously.
“A girl I met in Los Angeles. It’s over though. Hey Taylor, thanks for calling. I’m happy to hear from you. Don’t leave touch, okay?” Jacob asked with sympathy.
“I won’t, don’t worry. Jacob…” I said softly.
“Yeah Taylor?” He responded quickly. “I love you.” I said. I was shocked…I didn’t mean to say that. “I love you too.” Jacob said then hung up. I though if I said what I thought I said. Oh Gross! Remember--social classes don’t matter anymore--you will be at college soon! I kept thinking about Jacob.
That night I dreamt that we met up because I became a dancer for his group and we were dating and he dumped me and I tried to kill myself again. These images kept coming every night. I finally got a shrink and told him what was wrong and what I was dreaming. He said it meant I would have someone close to me and he would leave me at a time I needed him most and I try to kill myself. He also said it didn’t have to be Jacob. A couple weeks later the hospital released me.
~J*A~C*O~B*
“After she called me and said she loved me I haven’t stopped thinking about her. She has problems though but I want to help her. She needs someone to love her and never let go and that someone has to be me!” I poured my thoughts out to Trevor. “She has tried to kill herself twice in the past year. I don’t understand why either. She had everything going for her…she was going to cheerlead at UCLA and she had a full-ride. She can’t attend school and they took it away. I want to fly back home and see her but I don’t want to get to close then have to leave her there alone…just in case she tries again.”
“Dude, she seems messed up. I wouldn’t get around her too much just in case she tries to kill you to. I mean…” Trevor paused, “you never know what those chicks might try. Just focus on our career. We have recording for the album coming up and you need to be ready. I know how stress mess your voice up.” Trevor responded. “Just erase her.” Ashley came in the room crying. “Is Shelli being a bitch again?” Trevor asked. He didn’t like Shelli.
“We broke up. She is a mess.” Ashley responded.
“Couldn’t be worse then what I like.” I said to Ashley. I told him about Taylor.
“Jacob, I used to have lots of friends like that but they wouldn’t dare hurt another person.” Ashley explained. “Come on Jacob, let’s go right a song.” Ashley said reaching for his guitar. He walked into the living room. Trevor jumped up and decided to get Erik to go clubbing. I walked slowly into the living room to find Ikiaka talking to his girlfriend. I walk into my room to get my guitar and see Erik getting ready to go with Trevor. Back to the living room, Ashley is warming up. “Here.” Ash handed me a piece of paper with a song on it. “Play it once through to see if it sounds right.” I played his notes he had written down. “That is cool.” I started writing words to the song. Ashley and I recorded that song that night. It was called Say, Say but didn’t ever make the album. We both decided to just leave the chorus and have no verses. I went to bed with Taylor on my mind.
~T*A~Y*L~O*R~
Jacob was on my mind the rest of the week. I started living a normal life and decided to go start college at UCLA even though my scholarship was gone. I enjoyed classes but hated my roommate. We both like Making The Band but she hated Jacob and never believed I know him. One night I decided to call him but I got no answer--she figured I didn’t even dial a number. She was the dumbest bitch I ever met. Weeks passed by with no call from Jacob. Oh great! I scared him when I told him I loved him! Just great! I thought to myself every night. I finally gave up on him and went to a club. Half a year later, I totally forgot about him and I had a new boyfriend, Aaron.
CHAPTER 3
Aaron and I had been going out for almost a year--A whole year I hadn’t thought about Jacob. My sister had her baby--a little girl named Lucy Lynn.
Her and Tom broke up before the baby was born and Tom ran away. Poor Cherish didn’t have anyone to support her and she was paying off college loans and living at home. My mom helped her out a lot and so did Tom’s family. Weeks later his family got a phone call saying he had been arrested for theft and drugs. He was taken to the hospital days after that on a drug overdose, where he died. At this point, I was so happy he was finally gone.
He put me through so much bullshit I was glad it was over, for me and even Cherish. Aaron decided he had enough of me so he dumped me, only to go out with another girl right away. Instead of killing myself--I thought about killing him. First, I called Jacob. I received some odd person’s voice.
“Can I speak to Jacob?” I asked. “Jacob who?”
“Jacob Underwood. Is he still living there?” I asked suspiciously. “Nope, this is Lou Pearlman, how did you get this number?” He asked with anger.
“I’ve known Jacob since highschool, we didn’t keep in touch that well. Do you have a number I can reach him at?” I asked. “My name is Taylor.”
“Just a second, let me call him on my cell to clear that everything is fine and you are who you say you are.” There was a long pause and I heard Lou’s voice mumbling. “He said he will call you right away. Good-bye Taylor.” Lou said.
“Thank you…” but he had already hung up. I put the phone on the hook and it rang immediately. “Hello…Jacob?” I said. “No, Taylor, this is Cherish. Can I talk to mom.” It was Cherish indeed,
probably at the bank. “She isn’t home. Good-bye!” I lied and hung up. Five minutes later the phone rang again. “What do you need?” I said doubtful it would be Jacob.
“Taylor? This is Jacob? Everything all right?” His voice said. My heart leaped. “Jacob--I’ve been dumped again! I thought about killing him but thought I would ask you about it…what do you think?” I said breathless. “Hell no! Taylor…there is nothing wrong with you so don’t kill yourself or him. Calm down, because you know what? I’m on my cell and driving home to my house. Can I swing by and pick you up?” He asked caring.
“Sure. I will be ready.” I gasped. He said bye then hung up. I was so excited to finally see him again. It had been about a year and a half since I last saw him, right before he went to Orlando. I wore a long sleeve shirt even though the weather was well over 90 degrees, I didn’t want him to see that I was a cutter and burned myself. I wore shorts and as soon as I knew it, he was in my driveway. I ran out of the house as he emerged from the car. “Jacob?” I asked. He looked different, really different. His hair was in dreadlocks and he had grown a goatee. He smiled and nodded. “When did you start to do this?” I asked playing with his hair.
“Just recently. Do you like it?” He said hugging me.
“Yeah, original.” I said laughing. He looked at the long sleeve shirt. He looked at me funny. “I just bought it, thought I would wear it, despite the weather.” I lied again. I had stopped watching Making The Band because Aaron called it gay and fake. “I’m so sorry, I don’t watch TV anymore. What happened to Ikiaka? And how did the album go?” I asked getting into his car.
“Ikiaka quit.” He said. He held up a CD and I saw him on the front. I laughed. “Oh…this is Dan, Trevor, Ashley, and Erik.” Jacob said directing my attention to the backseat. I leaped. “Didn’t mean to have them scare you. We are just meeting each other’s family.” He said. All the guys laughed at me.
“Jacob talks about you all the time.” Ashley said. “Yeah, he wants you bad!” Erik added. I laughed and looked at Jacob, who was completely embarrassed. “He has these dreams that you two are the only people left on the earth and the population rests on both your shoulders.” Trevor said laughing. Jacob told them to stick it up their ass and then reassured me they were lying. I just had to laugh because the guys were trying to set us up. We went to Jacob’s house and Jacob took me to his room. All the guys ate his mom, Mechelle’s food. He took my hand and walked me to his room. He sat me on his bed and then went to his bag. He pulled out a beautiful diamond and emerald bracelet.
“I care for you and want you to be with me. I couldn’t think of any other way to tell you how much I love you. Will you be with me before it is too late?” Jacob asked with deep affection. I shook my head and he pushed up my sleeve but I jumped away. “What’s wrong?” He said grabbing my arm tightly. I yelped. He pushed up my sleeve and then looked at me angrily.